i feel so lost at this point. help me. i dont know what to do, i dont know what im doing. i try to walk further away from him in hope that he will catch up with me. but he's turning his back and he walks too. except he's walking in a different direction. we are reciprocating each other's actions in wrong ways. the situation is not improving. i feel really hurt inside, im not sure if he does too. why am i doing this to myself? why am i doing this to him? what am i doing to us? i feel more lost than ever. a tinge of hurt too. i go all out to escape but i realise sometimes, we just need to face it and resolve it. i dont know what's going to happen. help me, god.

syaza’s two cents worth at 3:25 PM




wow. trust me to seek solace here, of all places. well, im guessing no one reads my blog here anyways, so im free to paint on this otherwise moulding canvas of a blog.

hee.

im pretty much hurt. my heart felt like its hurting i dont know why. i need some guidance. im not sure why my emotions are giving me a free ride on the rollercoaster. it has come to a point where my emotions are pretty much dependent on others' and their actions. i hate that. i avoid that, but it comes to me. it's all about trying. and i wont stop. i will make sure i reach that stage where im numb, numb to anyone's actions, and i live life for myself, seek my own happiness.

till then, thank you blogger. (:

syaza’s two cents worth at 1:53 AM






syaza’s two cents worth at 7:41 PM

So it's fairly simple to cut right through the mess,
And to stop the muscle that makes us confess.

we're going too fast baby, it's scary.



yeay obama!!! finally, no?


(:

syaza’s two cents worth at 1:55 PM

what if we stop having a ball?
what if the paint chips from the wall?
i am giving up on making passes,
i am giving up on greener grasses.

syaza’s two cents worth at 10:14 PM